It’s that time again. I am doing another 21-day meditation challenge with Oprah and Deepak. Feel free to follow along on my journey as I Become What I Believe.
Living From Your Core
1) Take a moment to reflect on a time in meditation where you felt that love, self-worth, feeling secure, and feeling whole is possible, easy, and natural. Write down how this feels compared to your daily life outside of meditation.
I have never felt this during meditation. The only time in my life where I felt all these things is when I was 19 and went off to college. I was living my life on my terms and was content with my self in every way.
2) In the area of self-worth, note the outer reflections you are getting – or not getting – in your daily life. These reflections could be centered around respect, appreciation, valuing the work you do, being listened to, being considered competent, changing other people’s minds, or being considered important and valuable.
I get a lot of these things from my extended family. Unfortunately, I do not get a lot of these from my husband. He obviously has had little respect or appreciation for me. He didn’t value or listen to me. He just wasn’t a good partner. Some of these things have gotten better but it’s hard to erase 8 years of poor treatment.
3) Looking at both your positive and negative reflections, for each one think to yourself, “This is about me and my beliefs. My true self has total worth. The more I believe this, the more positive my outer reflections will become.” Now, write down your feelings about this thought for each reflection.
I think that when it comes to respect, appreciation, being listened to, being considered competent, important and valuable are all things I deserve from everyone in my life. That I give those things to other and should just expect them to be given to me. I shouldn’t have to wait around for people to give them to me.
As for valuing my work and changing other’s minds, those have to come from within myself. I’m not really interested in changing other people’s minds. People are who they are and they believe what they believe. It isn’t my place to tell someone that what they think is wrong. I just tell them my opinion and they can take it or leave it. I have had a hard time valuing what I do because the society I live in doesn’t really value stay-at-home-moms but I should take pride in it. It is just as important of a job as any other and I shouldn’t devalue myself because other’s don’t understand that.