The first week of school has come and gone. I am exhausted but still feeling positive about my decision to go back. So far, the hardest part about going back is getting a new routine in place. I had a very flexible routine for about the past 6 months. Nick has taken Odin to school or dropped him off at the bus stop for most of the year but just before Dessa was born and since he has been taking Gray to school as well. That made morning routine really easy. All I had to do for sure in a day was pick up the boys from school and even then Nick would sometimes get off of work early and pick them up.
Now I have to be up by 6:30 AM. I have to be out of the house by 7:30 AM and I need to be in the parking lot to trade cars with Nick by 9 AM. Then I get to go home and take care of Dessa and try to get some kind of work done, whether it be homework or housework. Then at 2 PM I’m out the door to get Gray and by 3 PM I am waiting at the bus stop for Odin. I am definitely on a more strict routine now but I actually like it. Before I often felt like I was floundering and bored. I felt really unmotivated because I didn’t have to be anywhere or do anything. Now, I feel like I am actually doing something. I thought that waking up early was going to be too hard and that made me dread it but since starting I actually like it. I don’t necessarily like waking early but I do like the fact that once I’m out of my 8 AM class I have a ton of time that was often wasted laying in bed.
Thus far I have not only kept up with homework but worked ahead where I could. I’m hopeful that I can keep this momentum going although I do have a first draft narrative essay due on Tuesday that I am hardcore procrastinating. As much as I love to write I hate having someone tell me what to write about and how to write it. I’ve gone to every class, have tried to be as extraverted as an introvert can be and am just telling myself that I can do this for 3 more month. I also got a little help from my sister B. On my first day back I received a package from her. She sent me a “Motivation Box” that included a funny card, some planner stickers, a Starbucks gift card, 1 Lush bubble bar and 1 Lush bath bomb and best of all she made me a diploma of sorts. It says on it “Diploma Under Construction Until Spring 2016.” I keep it on my little desk with the card and look at it when I’m doing my English homework that I loath. I’m lucky to have my extended family supporting me even though they are so far away.
So school is going well. I feel really motivated to keep going and I actually feel like I am succeeding. I really like this new feeling and I’m kind of kicking myself that I couldn’t do this the last time I tried to go back to school. That’s alright though, sometimes you just have to reach a certain point to get yourself moving. I guess you could say I hit rock-bottom and am now working my way towards a better me.