As one of my monthly goals is to meditate everyday I have signed up for a free meditation challenge with Oprah and Deepak. This 21 day challenge focuses on manifestations of success. Feel free to follow along, try it yourself and/or comment below.
Trusting Your Decisions
Q1) When you are in touch with your higher intelligence, we can make the uncertainties of life our friend. We feel this greater purpose that carries life forward, even though we cannot see or anticipate how all the details fit together. Write about an experience in your life where a great uncertainty was resolved when you released your need to control events, and in which you were able to relax into your higher self and embrace the uncertainty.
I was 18 and I was seeing a guy who, now looking back, was not really interested in me. For a long time I tried very hard to make this guy what I wanted to be and dug my heals in that this relationship was meant to happen. After doing this for a very long time I just let go of control and decided if it was meant to be it would. After I let go of control and relaxed the relationship ended but I became closer to my friends and started a relationship with someone who actually wanted to be with me.
Q2) Uncertainties that present themselves as life crises or major setbacks to our goals can undermine our sense of trust. These events challenges us to go deeper within our Being, and eventually lead us to the understanding that even these disappointments and frustrations are serving our evolution. The growth that comes from living through these crises with awareness and openness create an even deeper trust, and become important components of our success. Describe an experience in your journal where going through a crisis led to a deeper feeling of trust within.
I would have to say finding out my husband cheated, again, really made it hard for me not only to trust him but to trust myself. I felt like I had made a bad decision in picking a partner and that if I could make such a bad decision for something that was so important were any of my decisions to be trusted. I still at times struggle if I am making the right decision but I have dug deeper to trust myself more now. I have come to conclusion that I was making the best decisions from the information I had. If I had known the truth about my husband from the beginning I would have decided a lot differently so that makes me feel like it was my bad decision in choosing him, it was his bad decisions in lying, cheating and being an all around asshole.
Q3) Describe other insights you gained from going through this experience. Aside from developing a more profound level of trust, did you uncover unknown resources of inner wisdom and strength that made you a more complete and successful person?
I really think that in having this happened to me that I found an inner strength I never knew I had. At first I felt really weak and sad but maybe after a month or two I found this strength in me and realized that I don’t need to be with anyone who doesn’t want to be with me. That if you are going to be with me that I have standards and boundaries that are unbreakable. That I am willing and able to hold people accountable for their actions. If they don’t like it, they know where the door is. I am not weak. I am not a fool. And you don’t have to be in my life.
Q4) Use this space to reflect further on your experience today.