Well, this weekend was different. Very different. We actually went out a did some fun stuff. It was still stressful and I’m still riding the emotional roller coaster but a little fun never hurt anyone, right?
Friday was kind of stressful. We had cleaners go to our old condo that we are moving out off but my husband got locked out and then he had to call the property manager to get the key and blah blah blah. It was just a shit fest Friday morning. Afternoon was fine. Cleaners eventually got in there and spent 6 hours doing not that much! Fucking ripe off. They didn’t even clean the carpets! What were they doing for 6 hours? Anyways, they got an angry phone call from yours truly and will be finishing the work I paid for. After this whole fiasco we went out to a family dinner down by the beach. Food sucked but we were all there having a nice family meal and really trying to enjoy ourselves. After dinner we took the boys down to the beach to play in the sand and run around. After that the kids fell asleep in the car and my husband and I drove around. Unfortunately, the conversations goes were it always goes, his sex addiction and his acting out.
A woman can only take so much heartache in her life and I have had my fair share. I grew up in an abusive home where I was mentally, emotionally and physically torn down. I didn’t get to choose my parents but I did get to choose my partner. The fact that my husband, after me choosing him, would do this to me has been very hard for me to deal with. I’m just emotionally drained with everything that is happening and I feel like my life is spinning out of control.
But Saturday was a little bit better day. Slept in until 11! Yeah, how many mothers of 2 can say that. Cleaned the house for a few hours. Went to our marriage counselor for a few hours and then took the boys back to the beach for some more fun in the sun. My youngest had so much fun he passed out at 8! That never happens either since I have two night owls for children.
Sunday was a low key day. Grocery shopping, farmer’s market, relaxing at home. It was a decent weekend and hopefully not the last good one. We’ll have to see how the rest of the week goes but I’m trying to stay optimistic. What else can a girl do?