For abut the past two weeks Gray has been struggling in school. I don’t know what changed after the first 3 weeks but I don’t know what to do. He struggled a year ago with the first preschool he attended and we got him evaluated. The therapist found nothing wrong with him and suggested we switch to a Montessori program.
Now, a year later, he is beginning to struggle again. I’m at a lose of what to do and the guilt of not being able to help my baby or fix this for him is weighing heavy on me. I just look at him and see this perfect, amazing, smart, energetic boy and I just don’t want him to struggle in anything.
I feel like I failed him and that I failed motherhood. I should know how to help my child. How can I not know how to help my own child? I’m his mom after all, that is my job, to help him. Why can’t I do my one and only job? I don’t work outside the home so my kids, house and life should be perfect, right? At every turn I feel like something is falling apart and I can’t keep it together. I’m failing at everything but most of all, I’m failing my kids.